I don't know what the shit is wrong with me these few days.. Bra says I'm emo. I don't know leh. I feel like my incompetence is a bane to myself and to my very existence. I don't feel especially important to anyone. Really. ANYONE. Everyone could do better, or no difference would be made if I was gone. Maybe it's nice for them to have an extra person to talk to, but really not much difference is made.
Hahaha. It's really amazing how you could seem so fucking important in someone's life, then suddenly its like you were never part of them. Be it my past relationship, friendships, even family, my existence don't matter. I break up, nope, he doesn't care. Friendships, they have other friends, more important friends. Certain small gestures they make, really have a great impact on me, but i guess they don't really see it. It affects me gradually i guess.
As for family, hmm I'm not a prominent figure, so yeah doesn't make a diff. Someone i used to be very very close, to, drifted apart for a period of time, then in sec 1/2, we started to be close again. Then suddenly in sec 3, wonder what happen sia. Guess I was never really important in the first place. Well, definately not as important as the rest of the friends.
Forgot what it feels like to be important to a person. Maybe its my problem. Yes, I should change, change for the better. Now, tell me what you want, to get all of you back in my life, because you are important to me, if not yours.
I'm gonna be happy from now on, so yup :)
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