I cant believe this entire post is dedicated to ONE person.
Certain things happened a few days ago. After more than a month of cold war, he finally spoke to me. When I saw him initiating the convo on msn, I felt a literal pain in my freaking heart wth. Honestly it was shocking for me. After the expectedly short conversation with him, I felt pissed, very pissed. Why did he even bother starting a conversation with me if all he was gonna say wasn't constructive at all?
To be absolutely honest I expected something more than dotdotdot. I really wanted to trash things out. The only reason why I took so long to get over it, even at this point I haven't fully gotten over it, is because he hasn't put it behind him. SO GET OVER IT SHEESH. Sigh. I don't know what my problem is and I want him to tell me.
From the moment I ended things I was ready to be his bestfriend. So its either that he doesn't see it, or its not enough for him. We texted today. Even after we agreed to put everything behind and be friends, bestfriends. I can't help but feel that he hates me. The tone has changed. I can no longer feel the warmth that used to be there. I don't know whats going on.
Being with him, like how it was before we got together is what I want. So much. It was a good time. Simple and happy. Wonder if those days can return. Shucks. But any how everything happens for a reason, and I believe everything will work out fine ;) I will not be pissed anymore. Being pissed is bad. Holding a grudge is bad. I will learn to love everyone for who they are and hope they feel the same way.
HAPPINESS WILL PREVAIL SO SMILE! :D
SHOPPING DAYS MAKE ME HIGH AND HAPPY WOOHOO :)
person A: eh you know what! blahblahblah
person B: huh. oh okay *walks away*
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