Okay I feel retarded. Now I feel like the relationship never happened. Maybe it didn't. In my book of definitions, I suddenly feel like my 'relationship' wasn't a relationship. Well, yeah. Firstly i didn't think it lasted long enough. Secondly, I don't think we had spent enough time together just yet.
I think I was a bit delusional.. Like seriously.. haha. and I stupidly ended the thing as well. Good job Shannon, you really make the best decisions ever -.- But still, if it never happened, what is there to regret right? A relationship isn't a relationship without the relationship elements. I dont like people who define relationships so easily.
Having an actual relationship is not an internet romance. People define the term way too lightly. Resulting in people having like ten thousand exes. Whereas their actual number of relationships may simply be 1 or 2. However, in my case it felt like it existed. And yet, it didn't... Its all really confusing for me. Like wth am I doing? -.-
Some people might say we were together, some may define it otherwise. I cant be bothered to find out anyway. Whats over is over. I shouldn't harp over it any longer simply cos he obviously doesn't bother so yep. I shall get over it too woohoo. Friends around me are also experiencing such difficulties. What I can say is that just bear with it and take it in your stride. Put your own interests at top priority.
I know it sounds selfish and horrible, but seriously, its the only way you can be happy. If he cant give you happiness, forget him already. He obviously doesn't deserve you. Girls deserve to be happy. If he treats it like nothing happened, so be it. Move on. If he hurts you, just bear in mind that jerks like that wont have a good end. One day, their balls will shrivel up and die. Good riddance.
Tired of trying, so let me know if you want me in your life. But at the rate you're going, I would be part of someone else's life by the time you try.
I wish I would follow my own advice for once.
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